over the weekend, an old friend came back to town to visit family

so she wanted to hang out and catch up

I think I hurt her feelings a little

she wanted to play pool and have drinks…

ultimately I shot it down because I don’t like pool….

so we didn’t go to a bar/place with a pool table

I kinda feel bad

but not really

for far too long

I have always usually went along with and compromised too much for people

even my friends….some of them take me for granted in ways I can’t imagine and only recently realize

so now I am going to do more self care and be more selfish

I’ve never gotten my own massage, but have given others massages in the past

in the next few weeks I want to go get a real massage for myself